Maddy. 19. JMU Quidditch. Saving the world one blog post at a time. I post a lot of Disney and Harry Potter, amongst other pretty things, and pretty much anything that makes me laugh. I tend to use labels like Christian, Vegetarian, Chaser, Bisexual, Red-Head, and former Walt Disney World Cast Member.
people always say you’re not alone but that isn't true. They aren’t;t going to fight the demons inside your head with you. They aren’t going to be able to wake up and come over in the middle of the night just because the scissors on your desk re glimmering in the moonlight and the skin on your wrists are itching. and when they do, they demand answers in fully formed sentences when the only things you can give them are the shrieks in your lungs and the blood in your veins. when you rip your own heart from your chest, they will ask why you never sought help, when they couldn’t even be bothered to keep their lunch commitments or learn your middle name. there is no one in this town who can stop the throttle of fear and anxiety, and the people who can are scattered and I’ve already asked for too much already. I didn’t even know the demon had returned until the person who was keeping it at bay left. how silly to expect another person to fight the dragon guarding your tower, nevermind he took the sword. nevermind you were never taught to use a weapon in the first place. you are meant to be the hero, the strong one, to save your self in the end. maybe the dragon will simply claw through your burning veins and drain you of the little fight you have left.
this is already hell. there is nothing left after this.
You must learn to trust God’s timing. You can be sure that right now, God is arranging all the pieces to come together to work out His plan for your life. He has been working in your favor long before you encountered the problem. Don’t grow impatient and try to force doors open. Don’t try to make things happen in your own strength. The answer will come, and it will be right on time.
God has a set time for your opportunity. There is a set time for that problem to turn around, a set time for your healing, your promotion, your breakthrough. It may be tomorrow, or next week, or five years from now. But when you understand the time has already been set, it takes all the pressure off. You won’t live worried, wondering when this is ever going to happen. You’ll relax and enjoy your life knowing that the promise has already been scheduled and your answer is on the way!
you know that one tumblr powerpoint someone made a few months ago about satiation slowly changing the way you perceive humor until at some point you transcend humor altogether and someday we as a society will find only magnified jpeg images of hank hill with the words WEED printed over it hilarious?
i feel like i understand that now. i feel like this is it, this photoset is the surreal, nonsensical apex we are collectively inching towards. it’s vague and incomprehensible and even kind of threatening, but it’s as inevitable as the heat death of the universe and all we can do is submit ourselves to it
